In school, Nothing muchhh to update... Hope dream guy is okay. His away for two days. Hoping nothing bad happens to him cause I want him to be safe. Gonna miss him. Whathell? just two days thats all. Nevermind,if I miss him just look at his picture on facebook. Kae I miss him already & I wanna go to his Facebook pictures. Bye~ :D
Look up at sky at night sky, saw all those stars? The brightest star is me & I'm always watching you every night to make sure nothing happens to you til you goes off to bed.
Went home wet. Tears was flooding my eyes when somthing was running inside my mind.
Yesterday
Woke up,went to KKH as I had an appointment with th doctor, he wanted to X-Ray my brain due to some reasons. Meeting my beloved granny & my beloved aunties there so off I went to the place which I don't quite remember what the name of the clinic is called-.-. Waited for my number to be called... Waited & waited... So aftr my number was called,went in to this room & guess what? The nurse wanted to poke this long needle in my hand & I was so freaking scared I don't know why. Hugged granny & the nurse was like don't worry, it won't hurt abit just sit still & here's a teddy bear for you to hug tightly. Then I snatch th teddy bear[which was made out of plastic] & quickly hugged it tightly. Close my eyes tight & she poke my hand & I was like Ouch!!! So pain,nenek saket. Haha, I know,I'm 16 & I'm scared? Whathell?
Kkae,we are off the topic already.
Anyway,Feeza told us about his late ex-boyf, Elshieq.
After a few mins, I wanted to go peepee. So I went to th MRT toilet.
Zairul: Heyy Feeza !! Can you check what time is it? *smile widely*
Feeza: 1248
So papa didn't pick up, then we went to Civic Centre & sat outside Macdonald.
Zairul:Aku pon dgr uhk.
So we went back to CWP then we stopped & think. We want to sit on the seats & enjoy th air-con. Damn !!! So we went back, no choice. Don't wanna suffer ass problems. So went back to Civic walk pass them & went in & sat down at Mac.
Zairul:[ In my mind ] sape seyh? [ Me & Feeza just stare at each other ]
Zairul:Korg ghy uhk aku malas.
Ezaa:Leypak sane.
Ezaa:Tak nak naek sane larh.
0730am
Labels: stuck in woodland MRT
I wanted to blog, but I don't have time. This saddens me. I'll find a way . . .
Rudeboy's getting old, th chapter is ending soon & karma boy's gonna open a new book. . .
Find him if you can. . .
Tell you when I've created it. . . But I won't tell you where is it. . .
Bye babies.
I wanna be by his side always.
Love,I just don't know why. I guess you've found me & I have found you cause you're th guy that I've been dreaming of. Oh gosh, could it really be you? & don't worry,my hopes aren't high cause someone change me & that is Haikal,so all th credits goes to him.
I just don't get it. I'm just waiting but I don't know what am i waiting for. I can feel thats it's coming. Love? Well we'll see.
Sorry for th late update, kinda in a situation right now. Well everythings fine now,I hope.
Well only god knows, currently I'm at home. Nothing muchh to do. Nothing muchh to blog,well yesterday I kinda have fun at ECP I guess til some shit attitude appeared-.-. Well I hope you change yea? cause if you don't I swear karma will strike you down yea? Well,Fir's kinda cutee,hahaaa. Well I know his kinda shock to see tht I am sucha fugly boy. Hahaaa, well too bad uhk zairul. Hmm,let's just see what happens after 'N' Level aites? Will I become fugly again? Hahaaa,I'm gonna change myself & I know I'll look hott haha,so egoistic siaa zai. se-mack your face. haha. Well I got to go,boredness is striking me. Ooooh a text,from Fir. haha,sucha slow typer tht guy-.- & NO,I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ON WITH HIM EHK & WE WONT BE. He got better taste yea? I can see that his a guy that could last long in r/s,well but tht guy will surely step his head if he continues to be like what I used to be. Well just hope he finds th right one. (: Kae enough about him,I wanna go. Tata~ Before I go,I'll blog to you about yesterday.
Yesterday
Home>Bukit Panjang>Woodlands>Bedok>ECP
Met them at Bukit Panjang Plaza,while waiting for them to arrive,I was trying to find a shaver that is very sharp,searching then I found it but it's a girls shaver-.- & I know it's not that sharp. So I didnt bought it,instead I bought ice-cream. weee~ was in a stressing mood yesterday. cause someone didnt text or called me !! damn you H !! hmm,well at least I get to eat ice-cream. Favourite yea? Kinda cools me off. Anyways,waited for them & waited. Then they have arrived. Well, they were wearing white & I was wearing black,everything.Told me to wore white but I do not wanna wear th same thing hahaaa,then I saw Fir.
First time ehk,hmmm not bad. boleh tahan cute. But then I feel so embarrassed cause I wear so masai & my aunty contact lens give me problem only ! haiyah !!! might as well I use my expired contact ! damn uhk,should have use that.alaa,nvm uhk. Too late,pfft ! Anyway,we took bus & I just listen to my music full blast. Fav. listening full blast but someone was being irritating !!! damn uhk !! No peace at all !! My pahsal uhk nk dgr kuat2,bukan telinger kao tol tk? Ehk2 zai,bustard ehk?But seriously if you were to be there,I swear you'll feel irritated I mean he kept disturbing me & thank god I got anger management or else all th words that I've been keeping & holding to myself will be thrown in his face !! URGH !!
Kae chill, then we went to woodland & then took another bus to Bedok & another bus to ECP-.-
Kiwak,waste my ezlink only. Anyway,reached there & I went in th sea. Play2 water like small kid hahaaa. Cutekan? I know. Haha,sumpah sia zai mintk kene sepak. heee~ anyway, I was wearing bemudas so my bemudas wasn't wet & th thing that make me feel so pissed is that Udi pushed me & I was totally drenched !!!
Omg~ So fcuked up siaa,then i chill.. Just chill,you'll get karma just wait & see..
Anyway,then both of them also went in. Yeap,playplayplay then my stomach create prob. pulak. haiyoh maiyoh !! Went to toilet then went I step in,kimak !! One of th cubicle,someone just farted sial ! Not one time but loads & loads siaa,waliao ! teros peng siaa muke. Nvm,quickly do business,washwash then ciao. th smell tklei angs sia !! haha
Went back & they say they wanna play no more. Well okay then, Dry ourselves up in th toilet. Then off went to mac cause Udi wanna change & guess what? Black laa siaa like me,patetek betol ! Nvm uhk,just went off.. & here where th attitude begun.
Udi asked if his appeareance is okay & Fir say okay look like a jogger.Then he asked me & I say no comment. Then all of a sudden he was pissed & he shouted at Fir to walk first,wtf?You could say nicely right?Then I just walk in front & Fir walk with me. We talk & I just look back to see how far is he & he thought we gossip about him?Udi was like kutok... kutok !! -.- wtf siaa,since when we talk about him,we only talk regarding about ourselves. Then suddenly he walk in front of us & I don't know where th hell did he go so I just chit chatting with Fir. Hmm at least we spend some time introducing ourself & talking bout our lifes.
Then we saw Udi,he went pass us but this time we followed. Well then he txt Fir saying thanks. I was like huh? Whats wrong with him? Attitude muchh? Fir says just get use to this. This wont usually last long & I just say okay fine. We continued talking & I saw Udi suddenly sat at th bus stop. Weird? I thought we planning to walk til Bedok? Hmmm,then Fir went to him & I sat down. Udi was really pissed,& he just shouted to Fir. I was like wtf is wrong with this guy,attitude prob? So Fir sat with me & say lets just wait for him to cool down. Then we continued talking then all of a sudden Udi stand up & went to Fir & push him & shouted. I was so pissed,he have reached to that limit but I just stay silent & chill,I'm just waiting for karma to strike him that's all. Then Udi was like shouting & I just stand up & walk off. Tears started flooding my eyes til Fir grab my shoulder from behind & it kinda shocks me.
Fir: Don't ever walk alone.. In my heart I was like whathell,sweet peyh?hahaa,I saw his eyes was like so reddened. I wanted to well.. only god knows but I didnt do it. Just save it, instead I tap his back & say I'm sorry I left you I just wanted to control my anger. I can see that he wanna cry but he is like controlling it,cute peyh? hahaaa,his face expression just maintain & I feel like URGH !!! sepak muke diee haaa. Kkae,nvm then we talk for long hours & suddenly Udi called him but Fir just ignore it & Udi called mine & I ignore like duhh. Once people start giving me or someone I like attitude,say goodbye to karma boy cause I won't talk to this kind of people aites?
Fir says he would pick up Udi's call once we reached to tht bus stop.
We reached & I sat down,Fir called him I think. hmm,then a few mins later Fir place his phone against my ear. I was like hello? Then I heard him crying like mad! Whoa,I was like okay. Fir was like shooosh !Fir wanted to take him so he told me to stay here & take care of his bag & if anything happens just call him & he would take a cab quickly cause he dont want me to get hurt. Elehh,se-tep ade duit jekk haha,padahal tkde & he even admits tht he have no money.haha fcuk siaaa,kinda touching. At that point of time he really touched my heart & in my mind there's only one thing that I was thinking & that is love.
Tears started flooding but I just control it. I just smiled & I just say to myself,someone would be very very lucky if they get you Fir. Well I hope that guy will take care of your feelings cause this kind of people is really hard to get & you know tht yourself. Just dont let them step your head thats all. Then boredness strike me,So bored that I just dig up Fir's beg. heheee,shooosh! Don't tell him,haha mampos aku. What shocks me is that why is there make up stuff in his beg? & I browse his phone contact & I saw my old phone no. strange? Who's phone is this? Who's beg is this? Hmmm,maybe it's Didi's stuff. But why is it with Fir? I kept thinking til I saw Fir & Udi from far & I saw Udi was covering his face. I was like ohh brother,pretend I didnt saw them so I just look away. Then Fir tap my shoulder. We walk & Fir hand was like over Udi's hip & Udi is like crying like one baby. I wanted to laugh but I just kept quiet. Holding my laughter I just look away so that I wont laugh.
Then all of a sudden Udi stop,turn back went to me & I was like stepping back. Kinda shocks me,he hold my hand & says I'm sorry.-.- I was like HUH? Why me? You should have done that to Fir not me. Whathell,Karma have strike you baby & that is we,your friends have left you due to your attitude & in the end we came back for you cause we pity you as you got so lonely,actually not me,Fir only haha,I lazy-.-.Anyway What goes around comes around so learn from it & change cause if you dont, karma will strike you down baby. Anyway,we went off to Bedok Inter & I went back taking bus 854,shook Fir hand & just gave a goodbye wave to Udi. Went home wet-.- & feeling so exhausted. & suddenly phone beeps & guess what? H. Wtf sia?
Baby,I'm sorry if I didnt text or called you as I was busy yadayadayada. My holidays will be th week aftr tomorrow. Whathell-.- Hmm,I replied as usual.
Then talk to Feeza what happen just now then snore-.-
Well,thats all yea? I know so long. Well byeee babies~ lots of kisses comes around & goes around from karma boy. winks*
Karma moves in two directions.
If we act virtuously, karma will strike us happiness
but if we act nonvirtuously, karma will strike us miseries.
Labels: One word and that is change
Your karma boy,
You taught me Love , Now you told me to forget you ,
Then teach me how to forget how much I really love you.
Time passes by so fast when you're having fun while I'm just sitting here suffering looking at you getting loved by a guy & giving yours to him. It's so painful of what I need to go through right now. Whats th reason you left me? Why must I get this from you in return? You sang me your sweet werds but turns out it doesnt meant to be. You promise me that you'll be there for me but where are you now? Being love with a guy that I dont even know, & now you told me to forget about you when I've love you with all my life. I cried trying to get you back but then you told me to wake up & you just want us be friends. From that on, I was speechless. I stare at those words,those un-expected words. make love + satisfaction = leaving
Me + You = Nothing
I trust you with all my life as you told me you aren't like other bastards out there, but you have proof me wrong. Now I'm just sitting here in this lonely life of mine thinking what I did wrong to get this sort of love treatment again & again & again. It's so heartbreaking thinking that our sweet memories have turn sour. You've make me not to trust anybody when it comes to love. I just hope karma will strike you cause the way you did to me is so heartbreaking. Thanks a bunch, alone I'll stay with my memories of you. So goodbye sweet mother fcuker. Hoping that I won't get this sort of love treatment ever again.Even though you broke my fragile heart, I still love you with all the little pieces.
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