Saturday, February 27, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 5:15 PM
As day goes by the memories remain
missing you so much loveee ,
Yidah twinny , Farna , Feeza tipsy b. , Echa boncet , Maiya , Dinny & lastly Kak Dydy . ohh why must i be so faraway from you sweets . Farna , where are you ? are you okay ? How's your life ? I've miss you soo ... It's like you've move to somewhere faraway not coming back . im missing the memories .. missing your laughter , missing your wild & crazy self . Pray that you'll have a safe journey when you go out & when you went back home .
bleeding love ... It's fated tht im not meant to be with anyone . i guess my life is a never ending misery ... yea , my old blog ... so touched to see those couples holding hands tightly as they walk pass me . Ohh how i wish i was like them . moving on to this lonely life of mine ....
Labels: missing you farna
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& zairul blogged at 12:39 AM
It's been a week since i didnt came to school . attendance is getting worse & this year is 'N' Level year & i can just waste my time sitting at home feeling so sad coz of love ? ohh zairul , come on .
youre strong , you can go thru anything . stop with all this nonscence . sigh*
i'll go to school but still i wont smile in th inside . yea im smiling alright , on the outside . what about deep deep in my heart ? do you know how i really felt deep deep inside ? yea im crying , hurt .
missing my loveee , Yidah Twinny , Farna , Din , Feeza tipsy b. & Echa Bonchet . i wanna hug you guyz tightly .. i wanna cry on your shoulder , i wanna spend time w you guys .
but things turn out differently when someone else is in the way [ if you know what i mean ]
i wanna be at th side of the beach , crying . throwing all th bad memories into th sea .
letting out all my feelings . I wanna drink . get drunk so that all my feelings will get out & not hide in this aching heart of mine . I wanna cry on someone shoulder right now .
i wanna be loved , I wanna get a sincere warmth hug . I want someone to hold my hand & not letting me go , sticking with me thru th pain tht im going thru right now .
i wanna taste your tongue , i wanna taste love .
Love ...
i wanna feel it ,
i wanna feel pain ,
i wanna feel th taste of it ,
i wanna feel th hug ,
i wanna taste th sweet cherriness of your lips ,
i wanna fall right into your arms .
i guess its impossible for my wish to come true ... goodbye , will type again ... soon ....
Labels: love
Thursday, February 25, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 10:30 AM
I'm sick & tired of being with tears , nothing changes . today I've got an appointment with a specialist , X-Ray my heart , but what i have no money to pay it & I need to go & X-Ray both my legs in the hospital as they couldnt find anything tht makes my leg so in pain at poly .
So hurt when i ask my dad to bring me to th hospital for my check-up & he just say that he has no money , & just postponed it to another date & thats th only thing he said . He dont have the initative to call th hospital & ask if can use CPF or medisave . whathell , what kind of dad are you ... worst still , my grandma ... sleepover to her crib , woke up & she ask , wanna go to th hosp anot ? then i nodded but then she say she got no money & we couldnt ask for home bill or even ask for help . wtf ? wasted one day not gg to sch . so stress with my family that i couldnt control & tears started rolling , seriously i feel like no one gives a fcuk bout me & that really shatters my heart ...
I think even if i die my dad couldnt even afford to buy a graveyard just for me & he would just say maybe when i got th money i'll buy for him . whathell uhk ...
stress,depress,heartbroken,disappointed,fcuked-up,whatever .
Labels: so hurt
Monday, February 22, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 7:48 AM
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew
First teardrop . yea , click it . read it ... yea those werds above, its for you . Syakirchner , tht post is so heartbreaking , cant blieve tht it ends . i thought you guyz will last long but i guess i was wrong . it makes me smile when i see you guys together , sweet , touched . but turns out red rose turns black . dead . sigh*
i know youre thinking tht why am i like sucha busybody fella
yea i knw,wtf . sorry if i post this . so heartbreaking .
zairul , this is love . you knw tht right ?
yea ,
i wanna taste love ,
i wanna feel pain ,
i wanna cry missing him & kept sayin' his name ,
it makes me feel so alive .
But its hard when looks is wht they're looking for most .
using like a toy then threw him when he's satisfied .
yea , it bleeds .
Q:experience all this ?
Ans:thts a yes .
Q:list it down on based on what you've have experience tht is so heartbreaking in relationships
Ans:
- slap,choke,poke in th head,push a couple of times .
- being used like a toy,forced .
- taste someone elses tongue behind me , he confess .
- makin' love with his ex-partner , he confess .
- tears rolling , i dont give a fuck if you cried & he walks off
- your face could make a mirror broke , he shouted .
- harsh werds thts wht he gave
- promises he wrote it in a paper & he burns it .
still i believe that love can make me smile . i dont know why , even though what have happened in th current relationship . wont admit tht he was mine . if asked,just said nvr got one before & smile . forgetten th sweet memories . have thrown them into th sea , let th tears out at th side of th beach . done ? i guess not , wanna drink . wanna dance . wanna get drunk . ruined life ? yes , my life is ruin . bitchy attitude ? yea , i guess i got one & i wana chnge , slowly . takes time .
i guess ive done wht it need to be said .
Farewell,
Zairul .karma
Labels: heartbreaking
Sunday, February 14, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 11:02 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NURFARHANA YUSOFF !
cheyy,someone is 19 already . haha
gasp* Oh no,tht means,she's getting old haha . anyway may you smile always . sorry for what happen deary ): . nvr expected that your b'day would turn out chaos .
cant believe wht happen , yea i was w tears . BUT cant believe what youve said .. did you mean it farna ? did you really mean it , your own adek . cant foget those werds tht came out frm your mouth but still im lovin ya , pls dont end it . just coz of tht fcuker . tht stupid asshole fcuker !!!! AAAAHHHHH !!!!! i cant take it seriously , why must he become one fcuking shit & hurt farna just like that ! & Its on her birthday ! coz of you this happpen ... thnks alot , idk what is your intention & may i repeat , what goes around comes around ; karma .it will strike you til death . it is happenin' bit by bit . serve ya right .
yea,im referin it to you emyth , so what if you kick me out of th dance studio ? you think i regret for wht i've done,by tellin' farna tht youve kick Din ? please laa ehk , someone just ask me to join her crew . im not being big fuck here , i just wanna say that im better off without you ... your attitude is getting from bad to worse , youre sucha immatured guy ya knw tht . still in th fantasy world ? well it kinda looks tht way ,tsk3 . whatever bitch .
Labels: farna
Tuesday, February 9, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 6:42 PM
I believe in karma , & i believe it will strike you til death one day .
sad . stress . depress . drunken . revenge . unsatisfied . disappointed . lovesick . heartbroken . mad . confused . curious . foolish . used up . heartless . show off . egoistic . flirt . toys . fun .
backstabbers . hypocrites . two face . double-headed snakes . jerks . bitches . fuckers . assholes . dogs .
sad . stress . depress . drunken . revenge . unsatisfied . disappointed . lovesick . heartbroken . mad .confused . curious . foolish . used up . heartless . show off . egoistic . flirt . toys . fun .
backstabbers . hypocrites . two-face . double-headed snakes . jerks . bitches . fuckers . assholes . dogs .
mainly,this is how i feel ....
sad coz youre a two-face .
stress coz of sch , lovee ones & mainly you .
depress coz of love .
revenge ... hah,you'll see .
unsatisfied business to settle .
disappointed that youve backstab me .
mad that you are at his side .
foolish tht i'm still talking to you .
get over him will you ? whats wrong w you ? & whats w th facebook comment ? Was tht you or him ? if it's him still im disappointed,you could have done sth then just sat thr . You're a two-face ya knw tht ? treat me like enemy in website but when meet , you talk to me like nth happen .. wtf is tht all about ? Is this some kinda of a joke ? please uhk ehk , stop with all this nonscence . can you please stand up for yourself , youre trap in his cage ya knw tht . his taking advantage of ya , let go of th love , or even better burn it . burn all th so called " sweet " memories . still if you cant forget him , just list 10 things tht make you hurt coz of him . if you think of th sweet ones , then try to add th bad ones .. all th 10 bad ones ... then slowly , you'll forget bout him .
i cant stand it th way he treated you , its so cruel . i really cried wht he have done to you . i swear , it reminds me of th past , choking , slapping , pushing & get poked by th head . it really hurts me .
you really dont know him well .. youve seen his true colour bit by bit . yea his sweetness can make you get addicted by him but you must learn how to quit , his drugs can make you feel heartbroken,hurt etc . i knw youre hiding your prob & you dont wana tell me & yidah . but if can pls do , even though youve hating me alot . i'll still love you like my real brother,Din .
think carefully,it's your choice .
am not forcing ya .
Labels: think again Din
Sunday, February 7, 2010 •
& zairul blogged at 11:42 PM
Escape Theme Park
yawn* so tired frm all th "fun" at etp ... actually its not fun for us as all th "fun" rides are gone !
~ JENGJENGJENG ~
waste $17.70 fer this ... oh well ,at least we had fun in Haunted House II . its HILARIOUS !!
i mean u should see & hear fer yourself .. Yidah screaming," AAAAAAAHHHHH !!!!! "
Farna grab my body & fall . * laughing rolling on th ground *
& me running then didnt see where i was going & *BOOM* thr was a wall in front of me ...
well,let me tell you th whole story ... it goes like this ...
creak* u may go in , but before u go ... no takin' pictures , no touching th things in thr blahblahblah ...... ok you may go,have fun .....
ZaiRul:Yidah,hold my hand
Yidah:ok im not scared ! ..... AAAHHH !!! wtf !
i was th one leading while yidah & farna juz following me looking up down left right in out.
farna was last coz yidah was kinda scared ... haha
BOOM !
ZaiRul:ehk mak kao chi bai !
BOOM !
ZaiRul:Ehk mak kao !fuck laa melatar !
Yidah:ZaiRul i cnnt see !!!
ZaiRul:chill ....
all of a sudden ..... AAAAAHHHH !!!!!
ZaiRul:*panting*
Yidah:Zai,jgn lari ! jgn lari ! *holding my hand while running*
something grab my body & ~thud
it fell .....
Farna:Zaiii !!!!
Yidah fell sitting ot ground
ZaiRul:*panting*
*BOOM*
hit th wall,heck care still running ... AAAHHHH !!!!
push th door open quickly & got out .... *breathing non-stop**creak**door closes*
Yidah & Farna: AAAAHHHHH !!!!!
push th door open quickly & got out ... *panting*
a guy:AARRGH !!! AMEK ENGKAU !!! *slam th door shut*
3 of us laughing our ass off .
Farna:Zai asl kau lari sak ! mcm pompuan !
Yidah:A'ah asl kau lari ! i & farna jatoh .
Farna:Yalah,sampai duduk . aku grab badan kau pastu aku jatoh duduk .
ZaiRul:abeyh Yidah pekik mcm org gilerh,panik uhk aku .. ohh its you who grab me ? i saw someone chasing us thts why i ran ... *laughing* cant imagine,you grab me then fall . wtf !
*laughing*
Farna:kau diam uhk !x)
ZaiRul:Yidah go step my shoe somemore .
Farna:yalah she step my slipper sampai tekluar pulk ...
ZaiRul:haha daa laa,jom we go viking basah .
hahaaa,yea i knw . pathetic laa kan ? but it was fun ... then in th aftrnoon .... Feeza tipsy tag along w us ....
Feeza:Zai aku takot uhk,Farna muke fierce seyy .
ZaiRul:Dont worry laa,Farna baek laa . she's kinda like you but more wild ^^
Feeza:They friendly ke ?
ZaiRul:Friendly laa .
Feeza:Then i smile to Yidah tht time she tk smile , i smile like stupid !! she mcm sombong seyy .
ZaiRul:hahaaa dont worry laa , you need to talk to her first coz she susah nk make a move first .
went to them ...
ZaiRul:guyz,ni Feeza . Feeza ni YiDah & Farna .
Yidah & Farna:errr heyyy ... (:
it was fun , Farna & Feeza talk but not Yidah ... so hard to make Yidah talk to Feeza .
pity Feeza ,smile like STUPID, smile to Yidah but she nvr smile back .
well , thrs alot more but i lazy to update ...... got out at 0715pm then all of us went home ......
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