Monday, September 28, 2009 •
& zairul blogged at 2:51 PM
Kept thinking,why is my life full of miseries ... I wanna talk to some1 about my probs,Feeza,she's kinda busy with her bestfriends .. "E" ade dance pat Simei,bsidei wanna cool down .. aftr wht happent tht mornin' .i kept thinking til it hurts,went to th side of th room with th door lock & tears came rolling down on my cheek .why must i get this,i dont deserve it ...I hate my life,step dad attitude lyk WHAT THE F*** !Ive change but ppl didnt notice it .My rudeness slowly fade away .but it cames back when some1 have reached th limits .
I feel so useless,just like my mom said, ure just useless,Im a curse just like my step dad said,Kau anak celake [ ure a curse son ]Im a nobody >:
I'm just an ugly stupid curse asshole mother fcuking teenage boy who is living in this dreadful world .
To "E": Thanx fer all th harsh werds & shits tht came out frm your mouth . Youve hurt me really badly,I know i deserve this coz Ive hurt you by giving you my sacasticness . But i didnt cross th line by pointing u middle finger & throwing all th vulgars on your face ! you hurt me so badly & still i can take it ... I really love you,but youve just show me your attitude,i know youve learn all th rudeness & sarcasm frm me .but now Ive change . If i can change ... why can't you ?? You said,aftr all th bad things Ive done to you,you are still with me,why didnt you just dumb me .well here's the answer : I'm waiting fer you to change coz i know you can & all th sweet memories makes me love you,those memories make me love you more,without them ... I will just dumb you otspot . Please,change just fer me ... I already feel th pain tht you felt when i hurt you but you gave me more pain than wht i did to you .
Youve cut me so deep,youre a razor ...
To Ida: hey beb ^^ sry eh if i shouted at you at Mac,I was just joking . hahaYoure kinda different,not lyk my members . sry eh,not gonna do tht again (:
Dear God,why must i get this kind of life,my life is a never ending miseries .do i deserve this,is this a sign from you ?? is this a test ?? im sorry if i never pray fer a long long time . i guess you can call me a curse,its just not th right time,you can wait right cos youre so patient .. I just hope my life wont end so soon . Forgive me fer all th sins Ive done,well a big one .Please gimme your guidance .
your curse boi,
ZaiRul
