I'm crying right now .. called Feeza & she dont give a fuck bout me .. aftr argueing w some1,hung up & cried ... i cant take it,Feeza im sorry ok i nvr wish u happy birthday,i got problems please understand ... im so hurt,no one cares bout me .. they just care bout themselves ... then my mataey call & apologize & i told "E" bout Feeza & "E" feel so guilty tht die mintarq break just fer Feeza,terus i juz burst out w tears ... idk what to do right now ...

Feeza:


Happy B'day my one & only bebeh ^^



waaa,sweet 15 seyy . sry klaw tkde present . trying to save 100 dollars juz fer u to spend it . I hope youre wish came true (: sry eh klaw tarq wish u .. pls understand ): i noe your jiwe friends will celebrate your b'day then me tarqde pon org celeb & organise a party just fer me .. nvm laa .. im seriously sorry,first u then my mataey then who's next ?? haiz,please just forgive me ...

Kept thinking,why is my life full of miseries ... I wanna talk to some1 about my probs,
Feeza,she's kinda busy with her bestfriends .. "E" ade dance pat Simei,bside
i wanna cool down .. aftr wht happent tht mornin' .
i kept thinking til it hurts,went to th side of th room with th door lock & tears came rolling down on my cheek .
why must i get this,i dont deserve it ...
I hate my life,step dad attitude lyk WHAT THE F*** !
Ive change but ppl didnt notice it .
My rudeness slowly fade away .
but it cames back when some1 have reached th limits .


I feel so useless,just like my mom said, ure just useless,Im a curse just like my step dad said,Kau anak celake [ ure a curse son ]
Im a nobody >:

I'm just an ugly stupid curse asshole mother fcuking teenage boy who is living in this dreadful world .


To "E": Thanx fer all th harsh werds & shits tht came out frm your mouth . Youve hurt me really badly,I know i deserve this coz Ive hurt you by giving you my sacasticness . But i didnt cross th line by pointing u middle finger & throwing all th vulgars on your face ! you hurt me so badly & still i can take it ... I really love you,but youve just show me your attitude,i know youve learn all th rudeness & sarcasm frm me .
but now Ive change . If i can change ... why can't you ?? You said,aftr all th bad things Ive done to you,you are still with me,why didnt you just dumb me .
well here's the answer : I'm waiting fer you to change coz i know you can & all th sweet memories makes me love you,those memories make me love you more,without them ... I will just dumb you otspot . Please,change just fer me ... I already feel th pain tht you felt when i hurt you but you gave me more pain than wht i did to you .

Youve cut me so deep,youre a razor ...



To Ida: hey beb ^^ sry eh if i shouted at you at Mac,I was just joking . haha
Youre kinda different,not lyk my members . sry eh,not gonna do tht again (:




Dear God,why must i get this kind of life,my life is a never ending miseries .
do i deserve this,is this a sign from you ?? is this a test ?? im sorry if i never pray fer a long long time . i guess you can call me a curse,its just not th right time,you can wait right cos youre so patient .. I just hope my life wont end so soon . Forgive me fer all th sins Ive done,well a big one .
Please gimme your guidance .

sapp ppl !haha,juz got home .met Nabeela,Luqman,Saiful Apek & Feeza .
penat siaa,my parents werent at home . i cabot meet them uhh,haha
kate ZaiRul pe,hhaaa .aniw,lepak w them at near Huamin Pri thr .
talk shit,Feeza & me tk abesh2 bully Saiful esp Feeza .
tak baek kau,huahuahua !kate Feeza fierce pe .haha
kesian Saiful,alaa lyk i give a damn oni .padahal aku pon kacau die (:
lagy pon Feeza was in a bad mood,she kept complaining bout th doctor .
haha,til th doc kena vulgar by Feeza siol !
aniw,slack w them til 0930pm then ciao .


got home juz in time,mom called & says she's otw home .
phew*
well nth more to update,take care (:

phew*

KIMAK !!penat bodoh aku !Just went home,slack w Feeza b. at her crib,
actually i meet her under my blk,we meet up then accompany her til we reached her crib while walking sap kejap,then reached her crib lepak .
we talk bout our sex life . haha,alaa ade laa wink*
well nth much to talk about
then went home & then I was otp w Feeza & we are like fcuking bored .
ape lagy suruh Emyth call uhh,Emyth & Feeza juz talk to each other ,oooh they get
along juz fine (: well,then suddenly got some arguement as in me & Emyth .hahaha
long story,u dont wanna noe ...
but yesterdae nite is kinda fun !hmmm,let me tell u about it ....


.... walk w Feeza reaching near her crib,

Feeza: eh,ituu mak bapak aku kan ??

Zai: huh ?mane ?ituu eh ?

*point at th two couples wearing baju raya purplish pink*

Feeza: jgn tunjjuk laa ! ...... WOII !KAKAK !

Zai: huh ?kakak kao !mampos !

Feeza: just act normal ...

*walking slowly*

Kitty: oi cepat laa sikit !belengang - lengong !

Feeza: eh paiseyy uhh !

Kitty: dary mane nie ??

Feeza: dary rumah Zai ,kite org blajar

Zai: step blajar jekk *mumbling to self*

*walk til reached at Feeza crib*

then i juz sat ot chair,her sis was talking crap,kasi aku tekekek jekk !haha
then her sis was lyk talking to me,i was kinda nervous ,scary seyy !kakak die muke mcm kucing !meow !
she was laughing when i jus nodded & shooked my head ..

Kitty: asl tklei bobual ?? takot eh ??

Zai: tak uhh .. haha

then aftr lmdo !her sis wanna ciao & she gave me duit raya !haha,four dollars laa beb !
haha,ituu pon nk kanciong !apedaa Zai !
aniw,then wen in Feeza room & sap,we were bored then it juz gave me an idea & i told Feeza
wanna prank ppl,she was lyk anyth . so ape lagy prank uhh,we prank call Saiful,th guy tht i alwaez bully,haha ... tekekek siol !!! then aftr tht nk prank Ariff,tapy tk jady .
i call him & i put it as loudspeaker Me,Feeza & Ariff was lyk being fanatic & talking world !
we talk lyk around 30mins i guess,then aftr Ariff hung up,i look at th tym & im late coz my curfew is b4 1030,then i quickly take bus & rush home,phew*
nasib my mom was in a gewd mood,klau tk mati aku !haha


well thts all,nth more to update .
CIAO !!

Heyy peeps&bebehs !im at my crib playing lappy,so so bored ... yea,i nvr go to sch .
why got problem izit ??hhaha fake !anyway,just finish editing my blog.
still got loads more to edit,&&&i still got my pictas to edit.DAMN IT !hari raya is coming !weeets !it means i can go out again.
JENGJENGJENG!!!
pfft,im so bored here ... feel lyk gg to Feeza crib,well soon ^^
life have been very sucky lately,Khai call ppl to find me & beat me up & i dont feel scared at all,dont know why,wel mayb becoz i got my big bro,god - sis & bro to jaga me (x
don't know where & when they will find me & i don't give a fcuk . My family got some1 to protect us,then me got 3 more ppl to protect me,bestt kankankan ?but i nvr call them at all coz i solve all of my problem on my own,unless th prob got use hands then ape lagy ,proceed uhh !XD
berani dorg sentuh aku,suruh dorg take care sudaa !bodoh nye jantan !


Ariff,sry eh bro if i got give u trouble,well a BIG one . I'll try my best to get u out of the problem cos thts my problem not yours ... well klau cannot then no choice ,besides i nvr say anyth ,tht stupid Khai uhh mult celake betol !I'm sorry kae Ariff,i'll try my best ...


well gtg ppl !
nk edit gmbr & continue upgrading my blogspot .
CIAO !(;

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