Hello , fcukers.

Thursday, May 13, 2010 •

& zairul blogged at 11:25 PM

Hey, lovely readers.

See that picture up there? Yes, MIA.

I'll be going missing for this few weeks. Not missing in fact, I'll be not using this blog anymore.

So, people find out yourself what's my new blog alright?

I'm leaving this sad blog. Well, it's all about my upset life.

I guess fuck the past kiss the future.

I wanna live my life to the fullest. For now I have my own quote of life.

"Life is not a fame but, karma is my game."

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& zairul blogged at 7:32 AM

Letting you go is hard cause my love for you is getting stronger each day ♥

Heard the news, kinda saddens me.

Stop pushing the blame on him all the way. It's the girl's fault too! If she didn't did all those dirty things, he wouldn't have beat her up & be in this condition.

Nevermind, I do not wanna get involve or whatsoever but to the owners of the video.

Please delete the video & stop gossiping & tearing his image down. Let the court handle it.

You only heard one side of the story, what about the other? So stop hating him, I know it's wrong to hit a girl but when I heard what the girl did. I swear I feel like punching the girl's face myself but "you have a mouth, you can just talk to her". Well true, he shouldn't have just beat her up. Damn, I just hope his fine. Whatever it is boy, your closest friend is still there for you even mine. They won't leave you especially her [ my ecstasy ]. Just be strong aites? Even though I don't even know you. I know what you've been going through & I feel you. Just accept what happen & ignore the gossips. Let them say what they wanna say, their mouths not ours. We can't do anything. Well, all the best aites?

Anyway, guess what? I got prohibition by Singapore Children Society [ SCS ], well not exactly a prohibition. Need to obey their rules which is:

No breaking the laws

Be back before your curfew time which is before 8pm

Attend to school punctually & obey all the school rules

Attend all counselling session & activities from the SCS

If I break one of the rules, I would be send to boys home. But if my condition is good within a month, they'll increase my curfew a lil late. If I obey their rules til a few months. I can stay with my grandmother instead of my parents & my parents cannot do anything about it.
Well hoping I won't break any rules and for now, I would stay with home or be back before 8pm. I'm so afraid that I'll break the curfew time. Whatever it is, I wanna pass this contract cause I wanna stay with my granny cause I love her a lot & she love me a lot too.
Whatever happens, she is always there for me & I felt her every love. Didn't expect someone to love me like this & I love her more than I love my parents.
Change topic, hate this talk. Making me stress!!
Well, got to go school. Bye !!

Dream guy, wish I could spent all my time with you but I feel like I'm in a cage now.
Hoping you'll be okay. Love you alot.

Labels: SCS

Sunday, May 9, 2010 •

& zairul blogged at 7:28 PM

If you always tell the truth, you will never have to remember anything

Yesterday

Waited for them for more than 1 hour 30mins at Woodlands MRT Station aftr going to Dance lesson at Simei. So tiring & sweaty, I was kinda giddy due to not having any ciggy. So pissed, planning to slack with Fir .elfie, Feeza .tipsy, Wani & Lilly .lee. Oh gosh, seksa siaa waited.
Anyway, walk around at CWP then suddenly saw Lilly & quickly gave her a big hug. Hee~
Well,spend time with her not long as she got to go to Admiraly & go shopping. Damn betol!
So waited til around 8++ then Feeza arrived first followed by Elfie. Then we talk crap well most of th time Elfie was th one who talk crappy. Haha, not needed ehk about th shit thing..

So we got to meet Lilly & Eeza which is her sister at 888. Urgh!! So went there. Reached & give Lilly a big hug again, miss her. Haha,padahal tadhy dah jumpe, alaaa.. Kate ecstasy mahhh,addicted lah siaa. Heh, aniway then someone want ciggy then gave her lorh. Well she was like touching Elfie & it kinda pisses me off. Well chill.. Im a chill guy, patient is th key my boy. Heh~ As i was saying, feeza & lilly went to 7-eleven. Then suddenly, whoaaa. We're gonna get emotional baby! Haha, so we went to one BLK. Drag, then Elfie wanted to try. Then he drag..

Then.. Uh'oh.. Heyy everybody , study well aites!! haha, so Feeza hold Elfie while Eeza hold me. Me & Elfie like talking crap shit. Omg, so embarrassed but th good thing is I get to dance my energy out & I sweat like pig siaa but th bad & most embarrassing thing is I was being emotional. Ohh I hate tht part, it makes my emotional out. I couldnt control my emotions. Taik! So embarrassed. So we went slacking at one BLK with Eeza & her friend & with Feeza. So went there & sat with Elfie alone at one corner... Aftr a few mins...

So we went to Yishun chnge of plan, toning thr... Slack with Elfie at this so silent BLK. So scary, kept jerking when I saw something but thank god Elfie was there. Feel so safe.
Slack there til 7++ & I feel so bad cause Elfie was so tired. Omg, I feel like hugging him so tightly! Haha fake! Anyway, went up to feeza crib & guess what, she got told us that aftr one hour txt her but me & Elfie forgot all about it. Standard, leo got STM [short term memory] maaa. Heh~
So accompany Elfie to th bus stop, then he went back home.

I got home & boom.. Snore*
Sorry for th short post, I don't wanna talk more..
A lil privacy is needed yea & I don't wanna type some of th things tht did happen as I dont wanna get emotional cause if i do, evrything will came out here.
Well, when I create a new blog, then all th secrets will be there aites?(:
Bye honeybees.

My love for you is so deep but
I got to let you go as I'm not the guy that you deserve
& I can see that you love someone else.
I'm happy for you that you're always smiling with the person you love now.
Hoping he will take good care of your feelings...
Whoever he is, he is so lucky to get you.

If you're mine,
I'll always love you more than anyone elses that have loved you before.
If one of the bites I gave you left with a lovemark.
That shows that I have feelings for you & that is 3 words & 1 meaning, I love you..

Labels: dreams arent meant to be true

Saturday, May 1, 2010 •

& zairul blogged at 12:55 PM

let go Pictures, Images and Photos

I couldnt hold you forever cause

your love is for someone else,

therefore I must let you go,

you would sometimes came back

& spend precious time with me

but I'm just waiting for the day

you won't ever came back at all

& be with th one you truly love.

I wanna see you fly away

together with your love

cause I wanna see you smile.

Labels: I just want to see you smile dream guy

Thursday, April 29, 2010 •

& zairul blogged at 10:46 AM

In school, Nothing muchhh to update... Hope dream guy is okay. His away for two days. Hoping nothing bad happens to him cause I want him to be safe. Gonna miss him. Whathell? just two days thats all. Nevermind,if I miss him just look at his picture on facebook. Kae I miss him already & I wanna go to his Facebook pictures. Bye~ :D

Look up at sky at night sky, saw all those stars? The brightest star is me & I'm always watching you every night to make sure nothing happens to you til you goes off to bed.

Labels: Hoping you gonna be okay dream guy

Wednesday, April 28, 2010 •

& zairul blogged at 11:10 PM

its raining Pictures, Images and Photos

It rains heavily today & when I look at the raindrops falling from the sky & splashes to th ground, it's like my love for you have splashes to the ground.

Went home wet. Tears was flooding my eyes when somthing was running inside my mind.

Change my clothes, didn't took the showers cause I have no mood to do so. Went in th room,sat down,hair was wet but who cares well I don't. I wanted to cry but I just don't know why, I wanted to control it. I wanna let it out by ....... just like when I'm at TP. But this time, I'll control myself, I know I will. Sadsad also a guy can asked for number ehk? Wow,still I'm not happy.-.-Enough about today, it makes me wanna cry just by thinking of it again. Let me update about yesterday aites?

Yesterday

Woke up,went to KKH as I had an appointment with th doctor, he wanted to X-Ray my brain due to some reasons. Meeting my beloved granny & my beloved aunties there so off I went to the place which I don't quite remember what the name of the clinic is called-.-. Waited for my number to be called... Waited & waited... So aftr my number was called,went in to this room & guess what? The nurse wanted to poke this long needle in my hand & I was so freaking scared I don't know why. Hugged granny & the nurse was like don't worry, it won't hurt abit just sit still & here's a teddy bear for you to hug tightly. Then I snatch th teddy bear[which was made out of plastic] & quickly hugged it tightly. Close my eyes tight & she poke my hand & I was like Ouch!!! So pain,nenek saket. Haha, I know,I'm 16 & I'm scared? Whathell?

Hmmm,then after that I went to this room where they wanna X-Ray my brain. I thought it was the normal X-Ray but then I don't know that I need to lie down on a bed & get my brain scan through this machine!! Damn,so big !! It scares me. Lie down & th nurse told me to close my eyes & I quickly shut it tight. Th bed move in & out & in & out again & I was like omg, whywhy !! this is so scary & th machine talks !!! omg !!! Ohh & the nurse insert a tube through th needle where I got poked-.- & after a few minutes, my throat feel so different & it taste so yucky !!! Then after scanning,waited for 30 minutes as they wanna observe me if I got any allergies or whatever.

After 30 minutes,went off to Kak Didi's crib. FYI,my aunty yea not my sis,just called her Kak Didi jekk as I called her that since small. Anyway, I complained this to Fir which is so like budakbudak. CCB betol haha,kkae. so yea,bored so meeting my bestfr Feeza. Wanna slack with Ezaa at woodlands,bored so I don't know why I wanna slack all of a sudden. Was late thanks to one problem-.- waste my ezlink only hah! So quickly went there & met her. Slackslackslack & was bored so asked Fir to call me cause yea was bored & someone wanted to hear his voice-.-

So he called & damn so kecho seyhhhh !!! OMFG,you girls are so gatal ehk !!! Just remember this two words. His mine (: Haha JK laa. He got better taste like I said. Hmmm, then I wanted to eat this choc that Feeza bought but I pronounce it wrongly instead I say chocoload-.- wtf,they laugh their pussies & dick off & kept saying that word. Damn I was pissed !!

Anyways, Feeza was being so irritating & kept saying his hot & his voice is cute-.-

Whathell? Haha, FeezaFeeza.. Amek die uhk,aku kasi kao amaciam? Haha

Tak laa !! I mean his not mine besides he likes someone else.

Well I don't know who but it's okay. After all, his face want to like me?

Haiyoh !! I think he would think twice. I got pimples & I'm ugly.-.-

Ehk wait, I'm not hiding anything so you readers can

STOP SMILING BEFORE I SE-MACK YOU GUYZ FACES !!!

Hhaha, I'm just joking winks*

Kkae,we are off the topic already.

Anyways, after half an hour or so, he told me he needs to hung up

as his friend is calling him. Suspect teman istimewa die ehk? Haha

Tkper, aku tak majok ehk korg so jgn nk mepek pat sini !!! URGH !!!

So irritating, I not merajok seyh. Bluekz~

Anyway,Feeza told us about his late ex-boyf, Elshieq.

Again... Which makes my eyes became so watery.

I mean he is 1 in a thousand. He is so fcuking sweet. If I were to get to know him,

I swear I'll find & kill that girl. Not me larh, I call people. Heee~

But karma had strike her slowly, so she's gonna die soon anyway.

So satisfied but still I'm so fcuking sad that he died on his birthday.

Enough about him, makes my eyes go watery again.

After a few mins, I wanted to go peepee. So I went to th MRT toilet.

Then as I was about to go in, I saw that the screen that shows how many mins the train is arriving & its only Kranji & that is the last train. Peepee quickly & went back quickly.

Zairul: Heyy Feeza !! Can you check what time is it? *smile widely*
Feeza: 1248

Zairul: Wow ! we have no trains !! *still smiling*

Feeza: WHAT !!! I'm so gonna call papa

Zairul:-.-

So papa didn't pick up, then we went to Civic Centre & sat outside Macdonald.

At last,a seat for me to sit on. My ass is so painful !!!

Urgh !!! So then after that A group of Mats came & sat down on th other table oh & with one minah.

Zairul:Damn,psst !!

Feeza turned & she nodded with th what face [ which is so not needed ] Haha fake !

Me talking to her by eye language, move my eyes to th left [ meaning let's go uhk ]

Feeza looked at Ezaa & also did the same thing

Zairul:[ pretending ] Ehk dah kul due lebih uhk, kan ermmm [ thinking whose name to say it out ] papa nk antar kao alekkan? [ banyak-banyak bapak angkat aku which is feeza's dad -.- ] Jom uhk.

Feeza:[ go with th flow ] Jom.

Went off

Zairul:Banyakbanyak papa, ahsal larh tak pakai name Fir kan sedap sikit. Nie bapak sak. Haiyoh !

One of the mat reps:Alamk,baru nak mintak no. die. Ehk you !! Oi !! You !!

Ezaa:Ehk Feeza, kao dgr tak? Dorg nak mintak no. kao uhk.

Feeza:Mane ade tak dengar pon?
Zairul:Aku pon dgr uhk.

Ezaa:eee,dorg 20 lebih siakk.

Feeza:eee,malas nak layan.

So we went back to CWP then we stopped & think. We want to sit on the seats & enjoy th air-con. Damn !!! So we went back, no choice. Don't wanna suffer ass problems. So went back to Civic walk pass them & went in & sat down at Mac.

Suddenly, me & Feeza turned to those group of mat tue & one of them wearing red shirt waved & smiled at Feeza then when he saw me he was liek pretending nothing happens & quickly look away. Looked at Feeza & she looked at me & we gave each other the Huh face. Told ezaa & she was like that is my brother's friend.

Then Ezaa was talking otp using Feeza sim card like NOBODY BUSINESS. Then she walk off to th toilet, Feeza told me to teman her so I was like saying what if those Mat tue disturb you? Then she was like saying no they wont. Then I went to Ezaa, She wanted to went back & sit but then I stopped her & said that we wait & see what happens. I know they'll disturbed you'll see.

Then after several secs. Went back to the table. Feeza told me that 3 of them bang th glass wall & they shouted at her to come out. She just look away never gave a single stare at all.

Zairul:Ehk,jom uhk jalan.

Feeza:Okay.

Zairul:Ezaa jom.

Went off then as we were walking pass them one of th mat tue [ actually they're 20++ larh but still, OLD-.- ] shouted

Mat tue:BYE !!!!

Zairul:BYE CHEE BYE UHK!!! [ shouted ]

Feeza & Ezaa laughed

Don't know what the Mat tue shouting then...he shouted to Feeza

Mat tue:Ehk pompuan mate tgk sini larh.

Ezaa:Feeza,ahsal banyak laki nak kenal2 ngan kao?

Zairul:Cause she's hot duhh !!

Feeza didn't heard our convo. as she was thinking of arwah Elshieq

Ezaa: Ehk, jom uhk dudok pat Mac, aku nak dudok uhk.

Zairul:Alamk, yelarr2.

So went back

Mat tue:Ehk? Patah balek?

He & his friends laugh which is SO NOT NEEDED

I looked at Feeza & she looked at me & I mimic their laughter

Hilarious,we laughed

Mat tue:Ehk, yang tengah.. kluar larh [ which was refering to Feeza ]

Zairul:Bising bodoh!

Feeza:Ehk ezaa, die nk kenal2 ngan kao uhk!

Ezaa:Malas nak layan

Zairul:[ In my mind ] Se-tep malas nak layan pulk.

Then two guys came inside wanted to go th toilet

Ezaa teguh

Ezaa:Woii

Mat curly:Ape?

Ezaa laughed. whathell-.-

Then they went back towards us.

Mat curly:Ehk dudok luar uhk.

Ezaa:Tak nak uhk,Kao kutok one of my friends kan?
Zairul:[ In my mind ] sape seyh? [ Me & Feeza just stare at each other ]

Mats looking at each other...

Both said:Sape seyh? Mane ade..

Mat extra:Ehk dudok luar jekk uhk,nak kenal2. [ while staring at Feeza ]

Feeza stared at the table.

I stared at tht Mat extra & gave th shit face

Ezaa:sape?

Mat curly:Korg due.

Mat extra:Cpt uhk korg due dok pat luar!

Ezaa:Malas larh. Kkae nanty.

Feeza:Tak nak uhk [ whispered while looking at ezaa ]

Mat curly:Sekarang.

Mat extra:Jom uhk.

Feeza giving th taik face.

Then they walk off & shouted:Kluar skrang larh !!

Ezaa:Ehk jom uhk, dorg nak kenal2 ngan kiter org.

Zairul:Kimak,Prangai pemurah sak.

Feeza laughed

Ezaa:Tak laa,dok luar buat kawan jek.

Zairul:Kao nak kao peghy uhk,muke Feeza nak kenal2 ngan dorg? Dah lah tue!

If they bengkok oso not my type seyh.

Ezaa:Jom... Kkae,kite org dudok tpt table laen.

Feeza:Tak nak larh,malas uhk nak layan. Nanty kao layan dorg sak.

Ezaa:Tak aku layan kao jek.

Zairul:Dont even think that I wanna sit there!!

Ezaa:Jom larh.

Zairul:Wokay,but I wont sit there aites.

Went off. I walk straight & Ezaa wanted to go to there.

Feeza was standing in th middle. Don't even know where to go & started to laugh.-.- wtf?
Zairul:Korg ghy uhk aku malas.

Ezaa:Jom uhk.

Feeza followed me then all of a sudden Ezaa followed us

Ezaa:Jom uhk !!

Zairul:Kao nak kao peghy uhk.

Feeza:Tkde... Kae kao dudok ngan aku tpt laen table.

Zairul:Th thing is, I don't wanna look at their shit faces,tgk nk kasi aku sound jek. [ shouted ]

Feeza:Kae just look at me jek.

Phone rang & it was Papa

Feeza:Papa uhk. [ pick up ] Hello?

Feeza hung up

Feeza:Papa dah sampai.

Zairul:Kae jom.

Went towards th CWP then this minah & Mat KFC which is the one who wanted to get to know Feeza went to us just a further distance away.

Mat KFC:Ehk leypak ngan kiter org uhk.

Ezaa:Kiter org nak jalan ghy naek cab uhk ghy Yishun.

Mat KFC:Buatpe?
Ezaa:Leypak sane.

Mat KFC:Oh,okayy.

I just rolled my eyes then we went to th traffic light & waited for him then we remembered that he told us that he was waiting at th Civic Centre waiting cab.

Then no choice went back & went pass them-.-

One of the Mat:Cakap nak naek cab ghy yishun abeyh patah balek?
Ezaa:Tak nak naek sane larh.

Then we went off to meet papa,went inside & drove us home.

Then went home & lie down on a mattress in th hall but I lie on th sofa.

Then I slept at around 0645 around there not confirm...

0730am

Woke up,Whathell? Not even get to sleep one full hours !! URGH !!

Went to school sleepy but Fir accompanied me by texting so I didn't get to sleep. Phew* Thanks to Fir... Which is a good thing (:. Well gotta go.

Bye babies.

Labels: stuck in woodland MRT

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& zairul blogged at 11:46 AM

I wanted to blog, but I don't have time. This saddens me. I'll find a way . . .
Rudeboy's getting old, th chapter is ending soon & karma boy's gonna open a new book. . .
Find him if you can. . .
Tell you when I've created it. . . But I won't tell you where is it. . .
Bye babies.